Life's little lessons

As of today between vacation, family, and a funeral I haven't been to church in 3 weeks, I haven't participated in YW, and I've barely felt the spirit.

Tonight Michael and I went to the dumbest movie I have ever seen. Ever. I couldn't believe that grown adults were laughing at the smut on the screen. Even more so I couldn't believe as a grown adult I couldn't get up and leave. It didn't matter how embarrassed or offended I was, I couldn't leave. As we drove home and made a detour to 7eleven all I could think about is how I feel.

I feel empty and alone.

With these feelings comes feelings of disappointment and depression.

Life is not anywhere near perfect with the gospel and the spirit. At least, though, I feel whole. At least through the hard times and low moments I feel hope and love. I don't ever want to be this far away from the gospel ever again. I don't want to feel alone and empty. I want those feelings of hope back.

I can't wait to go to church on Sunday. It will be so refreshing.

What a lesson I've learned.

Little Update

Hello everyone! It's been a while since I posted and I really need a good excuse to distract me from cleaning my house.

So, here is a nice little update on my life.

My mom and her husband came down for my birthday and we got to go to the temple for the first time together.

For the 4th of July Michael and I went to La Jolla cove to watch the fireworks with my dad.

We drove to Idaho last week to visit family. Roxy got a little restless on the way.

This sweet little girl learned how to use the camera on my phone and took about 100 pictures. She snuck in some awesome photos.

See, look how cute that is?

I finished my niece's quilt.

On our way back home we got a little lost in a town that I didn't think you could get lost in. But the dog enjoyed it.

Not even a week later my sister's flew in so we could go to my Oma's funeral.

I even managed to get a picture that is so rare I can't even begin to explain it.

Overall I've been having a pretty good time.

He's my best friend

Just a few minutes ago an old country song popped into my head. So complicated. So frustrated. I wanna hold you close, I wanna push you away. I wanna make you go, I wanna make you stay. Should I say it? Should I tell you how I feel? Oh I want you to know. Oh I want you to know. It's so complicated. I used to love ths song. In fact, I still do. Listening to it made my heart flutter with excitement. It reminded me of when I was in high school and I wanted so bad to have that type of relationship. You know the one you see in movies. Where two people are friends and somewhere along the way they fall in love. I thought it was so romantic. Do you know how Michael and I meet? We were in the same ward and I thought he was so hot. My roommate let me know that he was our friends little brother. We decided to have a get together and invite our friend. We would suggest that she should bring her little brother. He was just off his mission so we wanted to make sure he felt comfortable in our ward. You know, we were so considerate like that. Unfortunately, no one could come. Including my friend with the hot younger brother. BUT she willingly, thanks again, gave me his phone number and he could make it! That first night was super awkward. Especially, since he was talking about the girl he was dating. Blah. Somehow, though, we managed to become best friends. We hung out everyday and spent a lot of time texting. All day. I was so crazy about him but he was dating someone else and I didn't know what to do. Looking back and trying to recount the steps I don't really know exactly how it happened but somehow we ended up dating and in love. The rest is history. Tonight, when that song popped in my head I realized that I got what I always wanted. I fell in love with my best friend. How lucky am I?

Chocolate Chip Muffies

My friend has this great food blog  called Sweet and Savory Tooth. You should check it out because she ALWAYS has great recipes. Also, a really hot guy I know made a header and he did an awesome job. He has made some really great headers. He's so hot and creative.

I'm getting side tracked.

Today I  stopped by her blog and was inspired to make some CC cookies. So, I picked a recipe that included ingredients that I currently had and went to work.

At this time I would like to point out that I am terrible at making cookies. Terrible. I can follow directions to a T and still screw them up royally.

Back to the story.

I followed THIS really great recipe and didn't skip one single step. I then put the cookies in the oven expecting amazing cookies and came out with...

This.

This is pre-usual. This time, though, I had a great idea. Since the dough is really soft I decided to use my muffin pan and made...

THIS!

I can't wait to eat them. They look so good.

Also, today I decided to do a little sewing and saw this quote...

It's on the inside of my sewing box.

So cute.

My sister, Jeigh, made it for me. She's awesome. I had seen that quote before but today it made me smile extra big.

Surgery and the Easter Bunny

Remember how I was wearing this...

Ohh, look how clean it was.

Well I wore it for four weeks. I was told that I sprained my ligament in my thumb and I should be fine after the four weeks.

So, I very anxiously went to my doctor's appointment on Monday to get that freaken cast off. They were very efficient in getting it off and for the first time in four weeks I saw this...

Hello thumb! I've missed you. I had to take the picture really quickly because I didn't want to be caught taking a picture and I wasn't sure if I would be getting a cast back on.

What you can't really see in this picture is that with taking off my cast the doctor discovered that my thumb flops way to far down because the ligament is torn. Exciting, I know.

So, on Thursday I will be going under the knife to repair the ligament. Apparently, we all have a tendon in our wrist that we don't use. (Heavenly Father did such a good job creating our bodies) The doc, who has done this surgery over 1,000 times, will take the unused tendon and repair my ligament. I will then have to have physical therapy. Oh such fun things to come.

I'll let you know how it all goes next week or something.

On a related note, the Easter Bunny and I had a chat. We decided that he just better come tomorrow morning because I might be exhausted Sunday morning and might not be up to helping him out. Also, since he's making a special trip, just for us, he decided that I would have to put the baskets out in the morning and he just dropped them off tonight. He also apologized that the gifts are not gospel related because he realizes that's a rule in our house. It's just that everything was last minute and he just didn't have a chance to really look into some good Easter items. So, I got a picture of them...

Michael's is on the right. My "big" present is coming. I'm getting the book "Pick Another Checkout Lane, Honey." It's a couponing book. I really want to save some money on groceries.

I hope you all have a very Hoppy Easter!

Two Quilts this Year

As you know, because you read my blog all the time, I make quilts for my nieces and nephews quilts when they are baptized. This year I have two that are getting baptized around the same time so I get to make two this year!

I just bought the fabric for the second one and I want to share how awesome they will be.

This is the first quilt for a boy. I did make one for my tomboy niece last year but still. His mom has already approved the fabric so I know he will love it.

This is for my very girly niece. There is some type on the novelty fabric that says "Once upon the time." Just in case you can't tell, the purple on the novelty fabric is sparkly. Also, the yarn is sparkly.

 

 

 

I can't wait to get my cast off so I can get started.

Things I love

I hurt my thumb real bad at work. I'm not really supposed to use my right hand.  I also can't work so I just have to sit at home. Helpless. (The sitting at home thing was only until I got my permanent cast; which I now have.)

Just in case you are wondering I was walking through a swinging door at the same time as someone else and my thumb bent the wrong way. I found out that I have sprained a ligament or, possibly, ligaments in my thumb and I have to wear a super cool cast for 3-6 weeks.

I chose purple because orange wasn't an option.

Anyway...

All that said these are the things that I thought about today that I love:

The smell of my dog.
Snuggling with my kitty.
CSI in the middle of the day.
The fact that my husband has to help me put on my clothes. I feel like a little kid.
Looking at a giant pile of laundry knowing I CAN'T put it away.
Having opportunity to prepare my talk when I didn't think I would have much time.
Having time to relax.
Being able to watch whatever I want on TV.
Not cooking because I can't.
Mid-day naps.
Not having to stress about the super stressful things at work.
My super comfy couch.