Saturday, April 18, 2009

Confessions of a 22 year old Wife

So even though I kind of put on a front when I'm around other people I'm a SUCKER for those super cheesy chick flicks. I LOVE when Michael isn't home and one of those movies is on TV. I love watching and waiting for the main characters to finally have that one kiss we've been waiting for all movie. Even though I know exactly how the movie is going to go I still can't wait to watch it play out.

When I was in high school I would watch these type of movies over and over again and cry over my pathetic life. I was always on a search for my "true love" and hated that every guy I went to high school with either thought I was a freak or saw me as a piece of meat that they could chew up and spit out when things got tuff.

One really exciting thing about heading off to Pocatello was that is was in a different town and led to new opportunities. Which in reality...meant new boys. But, I soon found out that I would once again wallow in my own pity and tears on my bed as I watched a girl being embraced by the man of her dreams. He would hold her firmly but tenderly and kiss her like it's the first kiss of her life. That girl knew, deep inside, that this man that she was kissing was the last man that she was going to kiss and nothing made her happier. I would sit through the credits and wonder where my Prince Charming was and if I had missed him because I was too busy being pushed around by some jerk. I also wondered if one of those jerks was the love of my life and I was destined to live with someone who pushed me around...but don't worry things looked up.

I just want to pause and say that I don't believe that there is one person that you are meant to be with. I believe that there are a lot of people who you are compatible with and who ever you choose is just that, your choice. No matter what you have to work at whatever relationship you choose to be in. That being said, I do believe that two people are meant to meet because they can have a successful relationship. I believe that Heavenly Father knows who we will work well with so he helps in setting up situations where those two people can meet.

So, through fait and a little bit of work I meet the man of my dreams. Was he perfect? No. He didn't sing country in my ear while we drove around in his big Chevy truck...but he did sing. Also, his big Chevy truck was there...just broken down in his parent's drive way. You know, I still wish we could have got the truck working. Despite a lot of really little things I really felt Michael was it (sorry if you didn't know I was talking about Michael, that could have been surprising). Even though things didn't happen the way I thought they would; he was kind of seeing this other girl, his family thought I was some physco girl who was stocking him, and I go back to the whole country music thing, but something was happening. Then, one wonderful day, I got what I had been waiting my whole life for. I'm sorry for the chick flick feel of that line but I can't help myself.

Michael and I had finally held hands and I didn't really know how to "go in for the kill;" the kiss. But, the Monday after we had started moving in a new direction I went over to his house to watch him preform as Javert in Les Mis. After about fourty five minutes of trying to find the first half of the play, Michael had to go back to work. We walked out to our cars and our eyes met...and he leaned in, scared. We had one small peck and he ran away to his car. Even though I loved this first kiss and as soon as I got home and walked through my front door went screaming to my room mates about how excited I was I had no idea what was in store.

That night Michael was leaving my house and we were hugging by his car. He said he felt really dumb about our kiss earlier and he wanted to make up for it. So, he grabbed and held me firmly but tenderlky and started to dance with me. He then started to sing...I actually heard the song at work the other day and started to cry. He then looked deep into my eyes and leaned in for the kill. I then felt the world stop spinning and I realized this was like the first kiss I had ever received and deep down I knew that Michael was the last man I was ever going to kiss.

Tonight, on ABC Family I watched A Cinderella Story with Hilary Duff. Even though it was about two kids stuck in high school and it was really lame I cried when the two main characters finally kissed. I realized that these tears were different then the ones I cried in high school. This time these tears were of me being glad that I knew that kiss. I am now in my happily ever it perfect? No, but I find that so exciting. Even though we fight and sometimes we are annoyed with each other, we love each other so much. We are willing to work through all the crap so that we can one day reach our true happily ever after into eternity. I'm glad I have my prince charming and I'm glad to say that I am never giving him up.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Our super exciting life

So this blog is really supposed to be about Michael and I. Little might you all know every entry really does kind of have to do with us but that's all unnecessary. So, I thought I would give an entry that is a little update on our life here in Emeryville.
Michael JUST started a new class today. He had a two week Spring Break and had a really hard time going back; I think it's the schedule. He goes to school from 5pm-1am Tues, Thurs, Sat. As you can imagine that's a terrible schedule and it really affects him. This new class should be exciting, though. He is taking a web design class. Now that Mike is back from his mission Michael can get the password...or whatever...for their URL for Haydy Productions and can design that website. So that's really exciting.
Right now, with Michael at school, I just got done baking a cake. I'm practicing for Trevor and Heidi's cake. I'm not really worried about the top and middle layer, it's the bottom layer that needs some practicing. I'm really excited to share my skills with them to help them save some money. I'm using my skills some other ways too. I am starting my business!! (Dinner for Two) This is where I teach people how to make a small three course meal...oh so fun. I'm supposed to start on the 25th but it's kind of falling through. But, I have a lot of friends that want to be included so at least I have a following.
As most know, I just graduated from the CCA and I'm very excited about that. It was so great to have family here to support me. It was so nice to see their smiles and know they are proud. Michael was especially proud. I thought about my year while I was at the ceremony and realized how much Michael played a role in my time there. I really wish there was a way for me to express into words the love and appreciation I have for him...I also wish I would have told him thank you more through out the year. It's amazing how much your spouse supports you with out you even realizing it. :) Anyway, I was really proud of myself. I didn't really realize my accomplishment until I went to that ceremony.
California is treating us pretty well. The weather has been great...summer is on it's way. Right now there is some serious wind going on...they are closing a bridge as we speak...but it's pretty warm. We really enjoy where we live but we are pretty ready to get to the next step in our life. We have a year..ish left and we can't wait.